DisclaimerAs my mom calls it, ‘salty language’ will be heavily distributed throughout this post. I am not ashamed nor apologizing, however, I am warning you. Grab a cocktail, you may need it. 

Saturday evening my boyfriend and I broke up. Wednesday at 2 p.m. I was laid off from my job.

The problem is, they were both extremely unexpected and painfully close together. Did I see either coming at me? Not entirely. However, as is life, chances are taken and people and places are  trusted. Ultimately curve balls are thrown your way. And it is up to you to decide how you’d like to deal with the pain.

A.) Be knocked out cold. B.) Put an ice pack on your bruises. Or, C.) Dust yourself off and stand the fuck up.

I told you, salty language. Sorry, mom.

So while I am not going to give you a play-by-play of this week’s events, I will offer you a synopsis as well as how I’ve decided to handle it all. Wine in hand, obviously.

Would I love to go ‘Eat, Pray, Love’ or ‘Under the Tuscan Sun’ the shit out of this situation? Of course I would. But the reality is I am 28 and my bank account is looking a little scary. So these days a Margherita pizza from Piazza Novello in Florence paired with a glass of Chianti from a small Tuscan village is more realistically Dominos thin crust with a side of Carlo Rosso.

Let’s take it back …

By Wednesday at 2:45 p.m. my world had been rattled. I felt sad, angry, frustrated, embarrassed and most certainly alone. Two stable aspects of my life had been pulled out from underneath me like a tablecloth covered in dish ware. Except, this was no magic trick and the perfectly placed table settings came crashing down in slow motion, radially shattering all around me.

After the initial shock subsided, I packed my book bag and joined my astonished co-workers at a nearby bar for a large-and-in-charge glass of wine. Reminiscing over the past year and a half made me laugh uncontrollably while tears of sadness rolled down my cheeks. This was one huge reason I’d miss my job — these individuals are both talented and real and even in my darkest state we able to make me crack a smile.

I made my way home — via the train I might add — and spent about 45 minutes crying in my bed before I made a decision. I could lay here, alone, sobbing into my West Elm pillowcase or I could get up and be with the people who loved and cared about me.

So I did.

3 miles and 25 minutes later I was in the presence of some of the most supportive people I know. Hugs were embraced, F bombs thrown and tears shed (again). I knew in that moment, I was with my people. I was where I was supposed to be. And I was proud of myself for not staying in bed.

It’s been a few days since the layoff and over a week since the breakup. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t still really sad. I am. While I am not defined by my job or relationship status, two incredible pieces of my puzzle are now gone.

There’s a new word in my vocabulary I’ve been using quite a bit lately: Perspective.

In any situation at any moment you always have a choice. You can view the dilemma as positive, negative, a life lesson or merely a bump in the road. It’s all about perspective. Instead of honing in on this week of complete chaos, I am choosing to see a larger picture. One that includes every single incredible human that has held me up this week.

Because at the end of the day I could easily be consumed by all the negative. I could lay in my bed watching Netflix with a heavy pour of Savignon Blanc and a Cosco-sized bottle of ZzzQuill nestled on my side table.

Instead, I am selecting a vantage point that includes new opportunities both within my career and my personal life.

It’s my perspective. And from where I stand I am choosing to see it as vast and limitless.

-TTT

18 Comments

  1. Such a tough time, but I know you will power through! I always feel like everything happens for a reason and you end up finding better opportunities! I’m looking forward to see where you end up!

    And let’s workout together some time please!

  2. Amy

    You are and always have been such a resilient female. I am so humbled by your posts. Thank you for the constant reminder that life happens and that’s ok. I love you bums. Your amazing and the best is yet to come for you. Xo

  3. Talk about a shitty week. When it comes to break ups, my mom always says “you never waste time wanting someone who doesn’t want you.” It sounds harsh. but it’s SO TRUE and really helps keep that whole perspective thing in check. On to bigger and better things, my friend!!! xoxo

  4. You are one fabulous woman and life definitely has a lot of ups and downs and ones that truly test us emotionally and physically! You have got a great attitude for tackling this next chapter in your life and you are going to ROCK it…BIG time. And you know I am always here for you…maybe we’ll be sipping on wine together sooner than you think. 😉 XOXO

  5. that is a brutal week. I’m here for you lady and you are so strong and will power through this! 5 years from now you’ll look back on this moment and see the amazing opportunities (and men) these breaks opened up for you! Call me anytime girlie! Miss you xoxox

  6. Womp. those two things are hard on their own, but when you combine them into one week it’s just too much!! Your positive outlook is so wonderful- I really struggle with that, especially these days, so this is a good reminder to stop being so negative! hang in there- it will all get easier! xo

  7. I can only imagine how hard those two events are on their own, but when they happen at the same time…what a blow. I think you’re handling the whole situation with grace and courage, Caroline. I wish you all the best! I hope that you know that this is just one door closing and another opening. On to bigger and better things! xoxo

  8. I have spent the morning stalking your blog and I can clearly tell that you are so strong! That was definitely a tough week but everything happens for a reason! Great things are already unfolding for you! Looking forward to what you venture to next :)

    -Breana

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